Somewhere between miles 77-179.4: It happened! One minute I was walking along when I looked up and was surprised to find 5 miles had gone by in a flash. How did I get here? What were my thoughts the last 5 miles? I couldn’t tell you, I was in “Flow State.”
“Flow State” Flow state is the experience of being so absorbed by an engaging, enjoyable task that your attention is competely held by it. You generally lose sense of time, self-consciousness, and anything that doesn’t have to do with the task at hand. In flow, you feel as if you could keep doing whatever you’re doing forever.
I haven’t had it again, but I hope it comes back. I am looking forward to the moment on trail when I am not thinking about aches and pains, specifically in my feet. I had a moment one day around mile 13/16 when I looked down and couldn’t believe what I saw… my legs and feet were still moving. Were they even mine? They looked like mine, but I couldn’t tell anymore, they were moving, but I couldn’t understand why they were still moving. It’s crazy what your mind and body can do. My heart and mind want to keep up with these young speed goats and nimble fucks, I get so mad when they prance past me while I’m lifting lead blocks for feet up the trail. My legs and feet are catching up to my mind and heart. Slowly but surely. So, for now, I accept that my feet are soft and weak, they’re building up calluses, gaining strength and one day, I too will be a Speedy Nimbly fucking goat!
On I Grow.
PCT 20 23 